Not as they appear to be...

Things are never as they appear to be. Or maybe they are always as they appear to be.

I know that sometimes I speak in crypic-isms. For those of you I care about, try and see the humor and have a chuckle on my behalf. For those of you who don't know me. Tough - go read somewhere else because you cannot begin to know or appreciate me anyway.

I am currently under attack again. Real or paranoia? Unfortunately real, but that only feeds paranoia. My paranoia springs from seeds sown perhaps as far back as the 60's and nurtured by hunched over spirits whose offspring now tend the garden. Visibly they may appear to be 25 years old and among the professionally perky, with throw away mentalities and a trumpesque, cavalier, demeanor but I can see that they are not very different from their predecessors. The self serving and unethical will always be among us and think very little of the consequences that their actions may have on others. They just don't care. They cannot comprehend the true golden rule for to them, it only means good networking skills. They cannot comprehend the phrases "....he who lives by the sword, dies by the sword..." or "...vengeance is mine, saith the Lord...". Religious based warnings have no place in their self based existence. They may have a trendy notion of Karma but have not seen it in action.

Well, I have and it is what keeps me going some days. I may not see the counterpart of your actions personally but I know that I would not want to be in your shoes folks - no way, no how.

I may have a struggle here and there but I know that I will be OK in a resilient way that you will never be. I have long since learned that it not our own strengths, intellect, and determination that enables us to endure, but those other ethereal things that steer our life. It is faith, hope, and love...and the greatest of these is love. That's not faith in the stock market or faith in our own cleverness as we dazzle 'em with our brilliance. All of those are games...smoke and mirrors. It is the ethereal that is the real.

I have spent the last two weeks defending both my ethics and my job, and I may not yet win this battle. But they just don't get it. They cannot destroy me, they can only let me go from a position of employment. I have long since identified the fact that I have the lion's courage, the scarecrow's brains, the tin man's heart, the wizard's perspective and a whole boatload of other mad skills that they cannot begin to fathom.

I can stay or go...it matters not.

Nothing is as simple as it would surely need to be - in order to be as it appears to be.