So, where do I go from here?

Self evaluation. I notice that it kicks in naturally when I finish any substantial phase of my life. It's a natural retool for me. Somehow nothing else matters while I am head down, hard at it with a project, until I finish. Especially when the task is something energy sucking like this degree has been over the last two years. And it is funny in a sad sort of way, that I am evaluating every bean counting bit of my life and deciding what I want to do now.

I can tell that I am on a precipice. I have been here before and it is unsettling, because I know what it means. I have no warning prior to finding myself here but I should expect that my path always leads me here after each foray. It will wind up being a good thing for me, just hard on those around me. Believe me, it will be all about me - me at my egotistical best.

What? No, I am in no danger really. It is the rest of my life that is in danger. You are in danger. What I mean by that is it is time for an overhaul. The danger to you is when I undergo a cleanup and redirect like this it means that I will strip away any person, activity, object, or commitment that I deem unworthy of my time, energy, or affection. Period. The whole process will no doubt include activities as simple as dragging material goods to a local thrift center. It will most assuredly also include suddenly discontinuing friendships where I believe that I am not being appreciated, walking away from social circles where I feel I am wasting my time, shutting down projects that I cannot justify the expenditing of energy such as this blog, and even relocating to another part of the country. Timing is unpredictable. It may be in the next few weeks or months or up to a year. If I don't get the chance to warn or explain, sorry.....